Yes, I know that New Years Day was a while ago, but my New Year's Resolution was not to blog more. If I blog weekly or bimonthly, that is enough for me.
Anyways, almost every year I make resolutions, and I always have goals I am working towards. This year is no exception. Most of my goals are personal to me, so I am not sharing them here, but I am keeping a log of my progress, and I try to make notes on each goal every day.
The two resolutions I am sharing involve my resolve to become healthier. While I was home on Christmas Eve, my grandma randomly in a conversation called me fat. While she meant it as a term of endearment, something about the era she grew up in (she's almost 96), it still hurt. My grandma has almost never criticized me before, and I really care for her, so I think that made it worse. Plus, it is a sore spot. Since the end of my first senior year (Yes, I'm one of those people who took 5 years to graduate college.), I started gaining weight. I think the weight gain correlated with decreased hiking/running to campus in the morning because I was late. I was able to maintain my weight until I married Kevin. I'm still trying to decide how the two are related since I eat exactly the same now as I did before. I am still at a healthy weight and BMI, but I am now closer to the overweight category, whereas I used to be near the underweight category, and I know that it is not muscle.
Right around the time that this conversation with my grandma occurred, I joined a diet and exercise tracking website that is free. I did this so I could see exactly what I eat. I usually do well staying under the calorie limit (especially when I work out and "earn" extra calories), but the thing that surprised me the most was how much sugar was in everything. Controlling my sugar intake has been the hardest, especially around Christmas (too much candy for presents) and due to the fact they do not differentiate between natural sugars in fruit and vegetables versus candy. The saddest part was realizing that fruit snacks were mostly just sugar. I think the closest I have been to my sugar limit is 15-20 grams over. I exceed my daily sugar intake with a normal breakfast of cereal (I've also decided Lucky Charms are not the best idea), milk, and a banana. However, I have lost about a pound so far, and I don't plan to lose a huge amount in a short period of time, so it is all good. I am mostly doing this to be aware of what I am eating, maintain my healthy weight (because it is healthy still), and avoid obesity related diseases later in life.
I am also making a greater effort to be more conscientious about going to the gym and doing workouts at home. I think the worst part of it all is knowing that I do know what I should do, but not doing it. I love how I feel when I go to the gym. I love feeling that I've accomplished something, and I feel good that I am working towards a goal. Last week I did well, hopefully I can continue to do well. I know that there will be days that I lack the motivation, so I don't expect a perfect attendance record. I just want to do something to make myself feel better.